Did/Been-Woah! The end of this month gained such momentum that I'm still trying to process it. Whenever that happens, I disappear from cyberspace. Blessings, upheavals, changes.
Back in the studio- Have been working on my latest in the Rebirth of Light series for 4 months now. Birthing this painting seems to be taking forever and I want it out already!!
Synchronicity- The tune buzzing in my head whenever I create this painting is "Caught a Lite Sneeze" by Tori Amos. That's always my clue as to what the painting is about. My initial internet search brought up false starts. Fans thought it was about her relationship with Trent Reisner, and that didn't resonate with me at all right now so it stayed a persistent, stuck in my head mystery. Yesterday, I found an audio commentary on youtube with the artist explaining her symbology and there we have it. Exactly it. With those obscure lyrics, I always figured I had no idea what she was talking about.
Story time- Did you want to know my secrets being exposed in this piece? It's about struggling with the masculine and feminine powers within. For so long I've thought I had to be hard. I'm just starting now to understand and respect the strength in the feminine.
How I felt- Such a roller coaster of extreme highs, ecstasy, and lows. Receiving understanding for my work in progress made me cry because the power of creating from the subconscious still surprises me. It feels as though it comes from some place separate from me and yet still connected. Also feeling more patient. I've realized I'm going through my own death and rebirth right now. Big stuff. It's OK to be gentle.
My big challenge- Surrender. Can't quite do it...yet. In life, I mean, but also is probably why this painting has taken 4 freakin' months. Any tips?